Smack on the head

Received a hard slam on the right eye this evening. Somehow the invisible glass door was swinging in my direction and I managed to walk right into it. A little lower and I would have had my eye squashed. A little mistake could have had my glasses smashed, except the contacts were on, so...

Feeling the dodging vision on the right eye now. The bump has become a swell and is blocking part of my vision. Is this some sign or am I being paranoid? Or do I have to be so intense to want to find out why everything has to happen for a reason however spiritual it could be? Or this could be just an accident, I was lost in my thoughts, distracted and walked right into the glass. I'm confusing me.

Made a big step today. After dinner, made the unsayable said and sealed shut the door. Put an end to this long drawn episode and drove out the nonsense I have been putting up with. But why do I feel an immense depth of enigma right now?

j.t.