what am I waiting for?

I get real angry. Even as I sat by the tele wondering when the dream will become tangible.

Then it occurred to me how insane all this is. The image of driving this whole thing - this whole dream - by the horns and charging ahead, as suggested by Tim, started to make sense. What am I waiting for?

I want change, so I will change. Even heads, associates and communities. Few get there, but the head now has to be stronger than this soft heart. I'm clenching my teeth and making the go.