Bite

There was no wind but only a heavy downpour. Outside it must be so cold. Indoors, the cold seems to gnaw away at the joints and leave bite marks on your exposed skin. Shawn just came through the door and announced it is 5 out there.

It's nice and quiet now. Only the running shower hissing across the wafer thin walls. It is after all past midnight. The only time where all of us are in the house at the same time.

Been struggling. Never knew i could come to this point where I tread upon my fears once again. It is unnerving. What I faced in the past month is now a new game again. Or does it have to be? Maybe it's just one of those jedi mind tricks. But once I got into it, things started to part and looked a whole lot more fun and easy again. It's like learning to walk into a chinese herbal store to buy foreign sounding plant extract your mum wanted to pick up. I remember it took me a whole hour to buy just one small packet of whatchamightcallit from the store just down the block. Spent most of my time pacing up and down in front of the store, looking in to see if it was the right time to walk in - procrastination started at a tender age. Due to some form of fear founded on nothing but presumptions of the scary adults laughing at your ignorance. I need to just stop lingering in the thought process and get the ball kicking and rolling.

It's like, before you know it, you've spent the last ten years pondering over deciding on the right moment to jump into the pool. The time is now. Now is the time to jump and take the first bite before anyone else figure you out. This life is so full of adventure and I'm going to savour every minute of it.